Yesterday was your original due date. It is also the last time I heard from your father. Saturday is your birthday – you were six agonizingly long days “over due.” Saturday is also the day I have to put Captain Knuckle on the plane to go spend the summer with his dad. Needless to say, this week started out hard and will just get progressively harder as it goes along.
I am trying to be happy for the sake of my children – it is their last week of school and there are parties and good times all around. It isn’t fair when I let my sadness for us affect my life with them. Yesterday is gone and tomorrow may never come, but I have today to make a difference in their lives.
So today, I choose happiness. I choose happiness instead of allowing this profound sorrow to swallow me up and send me careening back to that dark place. I choose to have a vibrant, active relationship with my children who are with me today. Perhaps someday you will choose to be part of our today as well. Nothing would make this family happier.